I have a habit of needing to be perfect in everything I do. I also set up schedules and apply them rigidly. So I did not want to go and play billiards today even though this was my day to go play. So I went to play reluctantly, got beat twice and realised I was not in the game. So I put my cue away and came home and sat in the back with the dogs and was much happier.I am glad I went to play pool but I'm just as glad that I realised that I was not into the game today and it was okay to go home early. Even so a part of me felt guilty for not staying the obligatory two hours. How foolish. No one but me says I have to stay two hours.What I am learning slowly, is that it's okay to take a break sometimes when you're not into something. Just because a bought a cue doesn't mean I have to play every second day even though that is the schedule I have set up for myself. That kind of regimentation takes the fun out of playing and I only play for fun and to get me out of the house (a part of therapy).I am going to go back out in the yard with the dogs for a little while longer. I'm going to just enjoy being at peace. It's all I want in life just a little peace. Less