2012-02-08 2nd journal, Mayan day 12 NightTranscript http://www.scribd.com/doc/81991736NOTE: I'll follow this with another one that was also going to be "private" - ha! Intro:I feel so lost – like I'm wandering around with no helm, with no sense of direction or control. There's some ego dissolving going on, I guess. I don't know, but that's what I suspect – and it's got the funniest trigger. What has thrown me into this funk (or whatever it is) is recognizing and accepting the previous lifetime as Sita. It just doesn't fit for me.There doesn't seem to be anything within this person or ego or identity on which this can hang. It doesn't go with anything. It's such a challenge, making room for it. And I'm laughing in a way, too, for I never would have envisioned this kind of reaction to this news. Strange, it is – simply strange.It seems whatever the structure of Theresa's identity, it's rejecting this new aspect. Am I afraid of it? Possibly. I don't know. All I know at this point is that I'm in a funk, not even able to record a journal for uploading – though there are many available. I've even gone through the titles trying to find one that spoke to me and said, “read me, now.” No such luck. I can't identify with any of them right now.So, how strange is this? How long it will last I don't know, either. I'm so glad so many other things, internally have come together for me before this. There's an internal strength that will see me through this, whatever it is. Overall I know I'm doing fine – even though it doesn't feel like that.I watch and observe. Not knowing what else to do, I wait for the elephant's step on my foot to move. No way seems right just now. There is no one to speak with about this – no one I feel would first, understand, and second, welcome it – be able to make sufficient room for it. What experience does mankind, does any of us have recognizing the ancient deities in ourselves?...
My joy is playing with perspectives, with higher dimensional ways of viewing life, and sharing that with my other selves - with you - through my journals. They don't all get posted, but many of them make it here. They make good conversation starters. Life isn't at all what we think it is - our 3D perspective is too limited. Still, that is fine, because we are all in the midst of perhaps the biggest, most phenomenal mass awakening that has ever occurred anywhere in Cosmos. At a minimum it is touching every part of the globe, every people, every race, nationality, and creed - faith or no faith, it doesn't matter. Humanity is moving on! I hope that my joyful work, which I present here, will shed some light, bring some blessings, and help many to realize they're not alone in what is happening. We're all one, and with quantum entanglement, the proof is in. What you do affects me, what I do affects you - it's just a fact, and a beautiful one, at that. My way is to journey through the heart, to bring others along for the cosmic ride. There's a whole different world in there: the Kingdom of Heart. The rules are different, too. Mind need not bother to enter in; nor can judgment, fear, nor blame find their space there. The portal's easy to find; it's open wide. All can enter. You will be changed. Learn what the rules are, how to open the door, how to abide, once you find it. Though it's very simple, it's also surprising, so be prepared to be amazed as we journey on our magic carpet ride. All are welcome. All are kin. All are one. That includes our space brothers, by the way. No prejudice here against any form of life.
